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so i am having shoulder ache due to incorrect sleeping position, i guess... i told my mom bout it. my dad over heard it and said "it was not sleeping position, i was you playing too much (video) game." after hearing that from my dad, i don't really know if i need to correct the statement he made or not. you see, ever since i started working i don't really play game like how i used to be. i don't wake up in the morning and started playing game till the night. not any more. all i do now is Facebook, Youtube... you know.. gaming now is just around 10% of my free time. maybe age has taken away my urge for video gaming... =/

the wanted

Acro S, Mudman, UWA lens..... the list will go on and on... so many things to buy but no money allocated for them.... all these items are my wants not needs. so i should control my urge to own them all and settle with what i have now.

i should aim for the big things first, such as owning a house and a car... i wonder if i can really afford any of these in the near future =/

plot

why am i so quiet?

well, i was plotting a plan, a "rescue" plan. i know this plan wont work and i have no chance to make it work. better be ready

silence kills

i not sure why i want to do this, it just happened. maybe i got used to it when i was on my "get away" trip. so i took this chance for good. i dont know if you noticed this, but then i bet you wont =)

i might need to do more than this to make things work... even though silence mode is activated, i still did more than what i am allowed/supposed to do. just last night i followed you home just to make sure you are safe. you see, i know i dont have to do this, but i just did. maybe i need an auto slapper installed in my car to wake me up to reality.

the new comer

first of all i would like to congratulate my bro for getting the other half of his heart. its bout time dude =)

now, after hearing this great news, something pop-ed out in my mind. something that i know its gonna happen no matter what when we got close in the future. maybe i should just disappear.

the thing is, i cant not think like this.....

Acting?

so tomorrow i will be the "acting" supervisor for an intern in my company since her lecturer will be coming over for a visit. so what should i do? what should i prepare? i don't think i am qualified to be anyone's supervisor. any how, i will try my best =)

deep

last time i used to say "the harder it gets, the harder i will try." but now? yes it is still hard to get, but it is different story now. i never knew i fell so deep until i decided to stop.

the breaking point

so yes, i can be annoying that i asked so much questions. so i am trying not to be annoying, but if i don't ask any more, it doesn't means i don't want to know any more

level up

i was given another project to lead together with two interns as team member. besides that currently i am supervising five other interns. i don't know if i am qualified to be the supervisor but then i will just have to do my best. basically i am still lack of the ability to lead people. maybe i am too soft...

anyway, i am kinda happy when i was given a project to lead as well as interns to supervise. maybe i am the most free to handle these new task. whatever reason it is, i am now a step forward in my career, they started to give me new things, new tasks to handle, with different role to play.

let's stop talking bout work. i upgraded my photography equipment, bought a77 from RM2800, retail price at RM3800. it was a bargain of the century right? i still need sometime to get familiarise with all the buttons and features of this new body. now i just need a lens to pair with this camera body, need to spend again....

i am now poor but happy ^^

June

before June ends, i would like to say thank you all for celebrating my birthday, it was really a surprise birthday celebration, can say the best, biggest celebration ever in my life, really appreciate it, thank you very much for those attended that day. besides that, i also got a flower delivered to my office door step, and i still don't know who was the sender till today, since he/she does not want to reveal his/her identity, i also wont be searching for the answer. anyway thank you for the roses. i really hope you will reveal yourself in the future.

i love you all, seriously.....

99%

i really wanted to say it out since that day, i want to say that i saw, i saw you that night while walking back from the back door. i don't know if you saw me or not. im 99% sure that was you.....

the pain

having shoulder ache after every badminton session is seriously not cool at all. i don't know why or how it happens, but it just did. maybe my technique is wrong? or maybe of the injury that i picked up few years ago?

i don't think many of you knew that i had a freak car accident at Cyberjaya together with 5 of my friends. it happened at the second traffic light if you come from MMU. my friend's car was totally wasted. it was a head to head collision with a Merc plus a butt to head collision with a van, so ya we were sandwich-ed.

i broke my collar bone, so did the guy sat next to me. i broke the right collar bone. so now i have two different pattern of collar bone. i don't think anyone noticed bout this, maybe because i seldom take off my shirt, or even if i did, no people will really check out my shoulder lol.

the first few weeks of recovering, i was so scared that i cant enjoy sports any more. as recovery progressed, i can finally do something which requires full shoulder strength and till now i am able to do sports like a normal person but the hand movement is not really the same as before. so maybe the longer i play, the faster i will get used to it.

1,2,3 FIGHTING~!

i think i watched too much Running Man lol

the get away~

will be going Cambodia on the 1st of June. wohoo~! cant wait for it. finally i can see Angkor Wat for real ^^v hopefully can take nice pictures there.

so last night, someone asked me a question, "what is life?" how will you define "life"?

the first, shall not be the last

today, i was assigned to lead a small project for the very first time. will be doing migration of a website to SharePoint 2010.

project timeline - 4 weeks
man power  - 3 men

hopefully project will be accomplished with good result =)

good bless me and my team!!

the weekend

yesterday was supposed to be relaxing Saturday until my mom asked me to go for a visit to a old folks home at Petaling Jaya. Apparently one of my auntie got cancer, stomach cancer if im not wrong. the last time i met her was more than 10 years ago. she moved into a temple (i don't know where) and started to be a vegetarian since then. joining the temple community and being a vegetarian, and now she got cancer... so who is your god now??

life is full of surprises, life is unfair, nothing is fair, surprises can be good can be bad.

it doesn't matter what the surprise is, the way you handle the surprise is what really matters.

this auntie of mine, yes she got cancer, her life time is shorter than your Facebook timeline, and yet she is smiling whenever someone cracked a joke, cancer is taking her life away, she is fighting it, she is losing the battle,  but she is not giving up

if yesterday is the last time meeting you, i would like to say that you have all my prayers

let it go

letting go yet again, letting go for good, for you, for the best.

now is just matter of time to wish you congratulation.

is not easy but i can do it, for you, for him, for everybody =)

angel & devil

yes, maybe i am not ready or maybe i am just afraid. i might not have what it takes to make it happen or make it work

the devil inside me always tells me not to move on and forget bout it, or is it the angel said that?? oh god....

1 to 3, or 3 to 1

so how do you drag a one day task to three days?? it can be easy until some one is watching you.

noob

i felt so stupid, so noob, somehow the module i developed for GAB got into a time machine and travelled back in time. it was good since it went live till end of last year, i don't really know what happened, things just went wrong. and the weird thing is only my modules. what the heck? i don't have and clue what went wrong, so i can only blame myself for what happened. i felt bad that my colleague have to go all the way to GAB to fix the error.

hello?

i just want to ask one question:

why do girls, quite often, suddenly stop replying messages?

sometimes it gets more weird when you are the one started the conversation and till the half way you went missing. to make things worse is that now we are using apps like Whatsapp, we do know if the other party read the message or not, so if we know that you already read the message and refuse to reply... kinda awkward right??

certified

passed my first ever Microsoft Certification Exam, wohoo~! but there are still many papers to go.

so i went to Lang Tengah last last Friday with MMU RC. it was my first time steeping on the land of Terengganu. Lang Tengah really is a nice island to run away from city life. very peaceful island. i was so happy that i brought along my phone (Motorola Defy) to snorkelling. i actually recorded a video under water for the first time. you can watch he video on Facebook, already uploaded. please stop asking me why my phone can do that, it just can.... lol

my next trip will be on mid April, this time to Kuching! with my ex-housemates during MMU time.

holiday no more

went Lang Tengah last Friday, overnight in LCCT on Thursday night, so tiring =.=

had 2 days session of snorkelling, tired but fun. a bit disappointed with the quality of the corals. had a really great time there, will upload pictures and videos on Facebook after tomorrow because i will be taking my first Microsoft cert. tomorrow afternoon, god bless me!!

motivation

seriously i need motivation, been lacking in work since the project in GAB. productivity dropped. stupid me >.<

i unfriend you!

seriously i don't know what or who did this to my Facebook and Twitter account. these bunch of peoples just disappeared from my list. so i asked around and found out something which is nothing. at first i don't really care bout it but then later on i found out something which made me wanted to know more......

is harder to track what happened in Facebook but not in Twitter

if you are reading this, HI! =)

its all about the money

money now runs the world, "ada wang, ada amoi", you can get whatever shit you want if you have the money, need more resources but you cant buy it? invade a country, need a wife? go buy one, need something urgently? pay more then.

i just paid my credit card bill, looking at the figures in my bank decreasing. that is not the best view displayed on my monitor screen. i know i don't come from a rich family, i know i have to work hard to have a better life. the thing is, everytime i look at the figures i have, there is this feeling that these will not be enough. i am not trying to live like a prince, i am not trying to be a super loaded dude, i just want to have a good life in the future, with my loved ones.

buying a house now seems so hard. buying a car? please don't go there. buying a car is not my priority. buying a house should be a human needs not a human wants, if you know what i mean.

gone with the wind

reading all the previous post, really put a smile on my face even though something bad or sad happened back then. i smiled not because i am trying to laugh at you or myself for what we did or happened. its like a time machine, allowing me to travel through time virtually, a time machine which powered by just words from the past. every single scene, every single moment reminded me of someone, something, which meant a lot to me. it allowed me to keep track of my life, a time line of me. yes i know that i did not blog for quite awhile, i mean for very long time, but that does not means that i forgot bout the things happened in between