back on track?

well. is been a long time since i 'really' blog. so much to say, but so little time n space for me to write. anyway lets juz do a quick n simple review of myself for the these 2 months. erm actually nothing much happened. oh ya i forgot to blog bout the camp i went. RCS DRRO camp. well talk bout tat next time cuz it will takes time to explain everything. then, last month was quite a stressful n bad month for me. things happened.... but then im trying my best to get rid of those stuff. n also Anonymous!! u better watch out! lol. mid term...pretty bad. haiz. here is a funny topic, friday... declared as pillow talk day. lmao! guys only la. for sure we will order 50 spring rolls!! i said 50!! should try 100 next time. hehe. td (tower defence) fever is back again ever since we left malacca. hehe. n not to forget dota. but then my unit is having sum problem wit the router so sumtimes i might not be able to get access to the internet. once again sec skul fear is back too. rumors!!! haiseh! really sien wit it. looks like history is repeating itself. yesterday i went to a bbq party at alan's house (my senior/sifu XD). it was fun. believe it onot me n janice were the only beta student there lol. lucky for me cuz i know most of the ppl there but not her. pity her lo. sitting there alone watch tv. n for those who was tried to call or sms me last nite but no respond from me, im sorry cuz i lend my hp to janice. she having sum problem wit her hp. well tis is was i wanna say for tonite la. here i would like to wish every1 merry xmas n happy new year. hope u guys get wat u wan during xmas =). cross your fingers for snow in malaysia! n wenjean 'get well soon' lol. n take care every1. hope to c all the monkeys tomoro nite at susu's house n till then, bb. peace out.

car crash

For once I want to be the car crash
Not always just the traffic jam
Hit me hard enough to wake me
And lead me wild to your dark roads

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reanimating........................

time

anonymous - i really hav no idea who u r. n u r watching me .. but who? not much ppl know i hav tis blog. cmon plz dun play wit me like tis, not tat i dun wanna play wit u juz tat i dun hav the time n mood to play wit u right now. things happened. n i need time to 'revive'. hope u can understand n thanks for caring. but if u really do care bout me plz tell me who r u. so there will be less problem for me to solve. k? for all my frens in mmu.... im sorry. i know tat im different from the past. i dun talk much wit u guys nowdays. sorry tat i cheated u guys. not tat i wanna cheat but is better for me to cheat...wat im talking x.x .... nvm, if u guys really wan me to explain juz give me a call or nudge. i will explain. i juz need time. k? i know u guys care for me. juz give me more time n i will be back to normal. peace..

chasing.....

god! wat happened to me!! my illness juz cant let me go. flu SEEMS like ending soon but not tat soon. n my eyes.. they r so tired for these 4 days. i still donno y. i slept for more than 6 hours n still the same result. c'mon!!! i cant continue like tis!! my time is running out!! i need to study!! 3 events waiting for me to organize!!! god plz.... help me!!! monday, tuesday, wednesday.. 3 days straight stay back in campus till after 11pm. wad da heck. n frens betrayed me. T.T everything is like going against me. or im the 1 going the wrong way?

sicking process

yesterday was my muet exam for reading, writing n listening. it was torturing!!! read around 5 comprehensions!! my eyes were so tired!!! even writing paper need to read 1! n den during the 1st paper reading.. flu started to attack my nose! i donno wat happened. suddenly got flu. damm! i tot it was juz normal flu. but then went back home d sore troat join the party.=.=" at 1st me n my frens planned to go mid vally to watch movie wit reimie from malacca. too bad at 3pm heavy storm... it was the strongest storm ever! the wind like can carry u 10 meters away n the rain like water fall!! the furthest u can c is like 5 meters only. nvm lo. tried to sleep but cant! donno y. felt uncomfortable n body tempreture started to increase T.T. after dinner bernard came to my room to discuss bout the movie plan tomoro. then we started chit chat! pillow talk! 4 guys in 1 room. so wat did we talked?? for sure boy stuff la. pretty girls, helping my fren to date a girl, sex life, sex education, video game, experience in dating, current target, ex (if there is any) n etc. XD. laugh for a few hours lol. tat time i was wearing jacket d. really starting to get sick! im cold so i wear jacket but then my body was so warm. wear or not to wear?? at 12 am REALLY sick d. damm cant watch movie tis morning! sorry reimie. now feel alot better but my mind still very tired n flu going to surrender soon i guess. my mom sure will kill me cuz i din tell her im sick =p. but im old enough to take care of myself

cancer - my chemical romance

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
and bury me
in all my favorite colors,
my sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
cause the hardest part of this,
is leaving you.

Now turn away,
cause I'm awful just to see
cause all my hair's abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go.

It just ain't living
And I just hope you know
That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you...

Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you...

counting down the days

There's no room
No place to start
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
See your smile
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days

How've you been
It's just the usual here
And days are feeling like years
And every day's without you

Now I cry
Just a little too much
When I think of your touch
And everything about you

I feel cold
I'm in the dark
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See our future
See our dreams
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days

comet

sky full of stars
and only one moon a comet just fly by
reminds me of you
and my chest begins to hurt
hoping you will appear

comet, he can fly
high up in the sky
everywhere
anytime
he can go

help me to become a comet
where i can fly
everywhere you go
i can find you, can be wit you

can i listen to your voice?
hold your hand?
entertain you?
no? or yes?
god, you are my only hope..